Today's truth

There is a difference between living alone and being left alone. Living alone means you don't have your people around you but you have them somewhere in your life who care for you and for whom you care , you have people with whom you share everything . And being left alone is the situation in which you have lots of people around you but no one is with you and no one is there for you even they don't care for you. But most of us don't know the difference between these two situations . People think that living alone means enjoying their  own company ,they don't need anyone in their life  and don't care about others.and they think it's cool and modern. From last few months i have observed that  on social media there is a trend going on  in which people think if they pretend that they are loner and they don't like to socialise with people around them ,they look more cool and modern. But there is a fact , people like to live alone until they end up  being alone. N...

do me a favor  tell her my situation tell her those stories i wrote about her. can someone help me ? can someone tell her my situation ?  i just want to know her how my life is going without her. i just want to feel her the stories i wrote everyday about her. do me a favor  just tell her the feelings  i have to hide from her. is someone here to help me ,to tell her the feelings i am hiding from the day one .i just want to know her from the day she left me i am feeling in completeness . living this life without her feels like someone took all happy part of my life from me. do me a favor  tell her that  if someone can bring me out from darkness she is the only one. can someone tell her when she broke up with me she pushed me in the darkest place ,she pushed me in the place from where no one can come back .and no one can bring me out from this darkness except her because she is the one who pushed me here and she is the only one who can bring me out from this d...

from last eight months today was the day when i talked someone so openly.first time in eight months i shared how i feeling from the day when the person whome i loved too much abondone me . and first time in eight months i really felt good . it was the first time when i shared my situation with someone face to face.yes i shared my feeling with a real person instead of any diary . And this time i felt too good . first time i shared how i feel when i miss you, how much i want you to come back again and how i want to end these all things when i realises the fact there is no comeback from your side . and the good thing is the person on the otherside was listening me carefully and making me feal good .   so the point is i want to thank that person but i cant figure it out how i should thanks. so i am writing this thanks latter to that person . i hope she will read it . thanks to listning me carefully, it was the first time in last eight months when i shared something face to face an...

Diwali is the festival of happiness and lights. this festival spreads brings light with it and spread brightness everywhere in the world even in darkest place. but i don't know why i still feel darkness inside me and it seems like this diwali is bringing more darkness inside me instead of brightness. while everyone is enjoying outside i just want to lock myself in the darkest room so i can avoid all these stuff because i want to be happy not to pretend and i dont want to showq fake smile to my family while i have tears in my eyes. i dont know why i am feeling lack of something , absence of someone special in my life while i have everything a caring family ,some good friends ,diwali gifts . I have everything a normal person wants on this festival but still i am feeling incompleteness. i am missing those diwali pictures someone sent me last year.i am missing that person last year i had . i am just missing a photo in which a girl was sitting at the front of a plate with full of deepak...

i want to stake a sharp object in my heart untill the last drop of my blood comes out from it with all the feelings i have in it . everyday i tried to pretend that i am okay and good without you and i mooved on with this breakup thing  but in real i am not okay without you, just because from the day one when we came in this beautyfull relationship i started belived in you in your promises, i bealived that you are the only love of my life.but everything vanished in a mooment just like in a fictional movie someone snapped and everthing vanished. however i  managed to spent my daytime by distracting my self from your sweet memories  but in the night i can't resist it and these sweet memories works like poisen  for my heart . everynight i cry for you ,every moments in which we live , all those memories which we made ,comes in my mind one by one and it hurts . it hurts more when on the one hand i miss you too much and having a hope of your comeback and on the other hand i...

A heart's cost is nothing until you broke someone's. Well, In this world you have to pay something for everything you have , a cost is set for everything doesn't matter it is the stuff you use or the people you love or you like to  play with them . The thing is ,it is not necessary that you have to pay money for that stuff or for those people with whome  you like to play.but that doesn't mean they are free for you or you don't have to pay something after you ruined them.One day you have to pay the cost for their loss and money will not help you . For example, when we were young we had broken many toys and for this our parents were scold us and sometimes even beat us and sometime they punish us in some other ways but at the end we had to pay something for our mistakes. So, A heart's cost is nothing . It's unpayable . In the whole world there is nothing precious which can buy someone's heart.if you want to get someone's heart you have to earn it ...

after a long time once again i am going to write all my pains through the pen . so from here i start my painful story which can waste your time if you read it at the end, every day from the morning to the night . from the sun rise to the sunset. from waking up to sleep. i have lot of thoughts but about only one person whome i have lost ago. yes this one is also about the same girl who left me and did not told me the reason behind her decision. every night before going to sleep i keep finding faults in myself . generally in days i try to keep myself busy in some stuff so i can handle my emotions but it's harder to control your emotion at night. every night when i miss you i find tears in my eyes. and suddenly all the  memories which we made for hard time when we are not together and miss eachother flashes in my mind .  but now i realise that you were never involved in making them and you will never miss those moments. and when i miss you when i realises that you are not with me...

in a very simple way without any poetic language I am trying to confess few things. these are the things about which i am unable to talk with my mom with my friends because i cant face their questions after they read this letter. the things i wrote in this letter i dont want to happen in my life but i dont know why it's seems like this shit gonna be real in my life oneday. yes, i want to commit suiside .i dont want to live anymore without the person i love too much. yes, it's about a girl who broke up with me four months ago. from the day she broke up with me , my life turned into the hell. everynight i sleep with her sweet memories and it gives too much pain to my heart . and in morning i wakeup with my wet pilow . i dont want to live anymore because everyday i feel lke i am the lonliest person in this world full of people. everyday whenever i miss her i realise that the day when she came back in my life again , will never come in my life . and i have to live alone . and i am ...

What i had  And now  what i have  ??? Before some time  I had  precious smile on my face  Now i have same smile to hide my pains Before some time  I thought i had a perfect soul mate But now  My soul is totally broken by that mate Before some time  I thought i am the person who has all the happiness But now i dont remember the meaning of that. Before some time  I had the best moment of my life which put a smile on my face  But now that moments become memory and left lot of pain Before some time  i have a person i dont want to loose Now  Only thing i want to bring her back. Harshit saxena

I don't know in which situation i am. No memes make me smile ,no jokes make me laugh I forgot last time when i laugh. I unfollowed all the pages which post about love. Always i put my phone on airplane mode when my friends invite me to join a video call. i start ignoring all my friend's msgs. I quit talking to my family. I can't share anything with friends. Whenever i tried to share something with my bestiee i got pain in my head and tears in my eyes. I quit talking with people because i feel like they are taunting me and making fun. I just want to live alone at a place where no one is there to irritate me. Everything arround me irritates me even my clock's tic tic. When everyone in lockdown showing there talent or improving their skills i have nothing to do or i should say i dont want to do anything . When my family are busy in family talk and they enjoy those   moments  i used to locked myself in a room and sit in front of fish aquarium and watch them for too long ...

I just want to run from everything  from everyone . I want to run from my family from my friends. I don't want to face people anymore. I just want to run from my classmates from my relatives  and every one around me. I dont want to face my responsibilities my feelings for you . I don't want to think about you anymore. I dont want to face anyone anymore because i am afraid of people's taunt . I am afraid that they make fun of me. I want to go  a palace where no one there to bothering me even my own thoughts . I want to go a place where i can sleep with peace because whenever i try to sleep i can't my thoughts surrounds me . I was the happiest person some days ago but now i don't know what is happiness I forget my own real smile now everything is fake i pretend. J want to run from everything and never want to look behind  but whenever i try my past and my overthinking not let me. Whenever  i try to distract me from my fucking thoughts using interne...

The question is " How much a girl can be cruel?" The question is "how can a girl betray someone who love her so much?" The question is "how can a girl leave someone alone in midway when that person is dreaming about whole journey with her?" The question is "how can a girl break all those promises which are made by both of them under the sky in the presence of moon and stars ?" The question is "how can a girl destroy someone's life who always dreaming his life with her?" The question is "how can a girl lied to that person who always trust her blindly?" The question is "after some time why girls start behave rudely with that person with whome  she used to behave like a child?" The question is "why girls make someone fall in love so much with her ?" Many questions of this type comes in my mind everyday and i am unable to find answer of these question as always i am . I don't know why a girl leave someo...

यूँ क्यों तू छोड़ गया न कुछ बोल के गया अकेली राहो पर क्यों तू छोड़ गया यूँ क्यों तू छोड़ गया न कुछ बोल के गया अंधियारे में तू तो  अनजानों सा छोड़ गया जरा ख्याल रख लेता  मेरा प्यार समझ लेता मैं मर जाऊंगा तेरे बिन इसी बात का डर रख लेता तेरे बिन कौन था मेरा किसको मैंने अपनाया था जो कुछ था तू था तुझीको रब बनाया था और रब छोड़ेगा मुझको मेरा ये कभी न समझ पाया था यूँ क्यों तू छोड़ गया  न कुछ बोल के गया  अंधियारे में तू तो अनजानों सा छोड़ गया यूँ क्यों तू छोड़ गया न कुछ बोल के गया अकेली रहो पर  क्यों तू छोड़ गया

I can not say the girl i love is the most beautiful girl in the world.but she is one of them. in this world nothing is comparable with her.but you can find some similarities with some other things. as her heart is pure as the holy river and she is loyal for me as a love bird is loyal for another bird.  i can always see a shine in her brown eyes.and there is nothing to compare with her smile. her lips are softer then the rose petals and the color of her lips is matches with the new rose buds. i can not explain her beauty but i want to explain and i also don't know How. so sometime i take help from writing stories and composeing poems on her . shayries are also so helpful.but whenever  i tried to explain always i failed and all my attempts are gone wrong. once someone ask me for the time i want to enjoy with her and i ignored that question as well as i ignored that person because at that time i was with her.and whenever i am with her i don't want to waste a single second . i jus...

once i returned from a party with my two friend. the time was between 8:30 to 9:00 'o' clock . all of us enjoying our way and we have some gossip about party .we came across an alley that was a little deserted.we saw a girl 20 or 30 steps away from us and coming toward us with a bycicle.probably she is student of class 8th or 9th . she looks too cute. she was enjoying her way and coming towards us  but when  she saw us she grew frightened and slowed her steps. we dont know why she slow her steps but we can easily saw fears in her innocent eyes. i was trying to look in her eyes but she was kneeling down her terrified eyes and move towards us slowly. anyone can easily understand that her eyes were full of fears at that deserted street. she was not afraid that she was alone at that deserted street . she was afraid because she saw three boys at that street who walks 20 or 30 steps far from her and moving towards her. she was moving toward us with lot of fear in her eyes and s...

Hey, I am going to tell you about my dreams Can you give me your hands for few minutes please? I just want to tell you that i want to hold you hands forever till my last breath and i promise you i will never leave it and never leave you alone anywhere. I want to always be there behind you whenever you need and some times i will stand before you. I want to make you anger by teasing you and find new ways to convince you . I am ready to take all your tantrums without any condition. I want to play some little fights with you and at last let you win in every fight.  I want to play with your long hairs and play with your soft  hands. I will try to give you all happiness which is a princes desires. Do you know one thing? You are my princess in my dreams. But in real you are the Queen of my life. In dreams i see myself as your prince but in real i want to be your joker who makes you happy and laugh every time. I want to be your joker because i want to dominated by you. I w...

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