Today's truth

from last eight months today was the day when i talked someone so openly.first time in eight months i shared how i feeling from the day when the person whome i loved too much abondone me . and first time in eight months i really felt good . it was the first time when i shared my situation with someone face to face.yes i shared my feeling with a real person instead of any diary . And this time i felt too good . first time i shared how i feel when i miss you, how much i want you to come back again and how i want to end these all things when i realises the fact there is no comeback from your side . and the good thing is the person on the otherside was listening me carefully and making me feal good .   so the point is i want to thank that person but i cant figure it out how i should thanks. so i am writing this thanks latter to that person . i hope she will read it . thanks to listning me carefully, it was the first time in last eight months when i shared something face to face and this ma

Diwali is the festival of happiness and lights. this festival spreads brings light with it and spread brightness everywhere in the world even in darkest place. but i don't know why i still feel darkness inside me and it seems like this diwali is bringing more darkness inside me instead of brightness. while everyone is enjoying outside i just want to lock myself in the darkest room so i can avoid all these stuff because i want to be happy not to pretend and i dont want to showq fake smile to my family while i have tears in my eyes. i dont know why i am feeling lack of something , absence of someone special in my life while i have everything a caring family ,some good friends ,diwali gifts . I have everything a normal person wants on this festival but still i am feeling incompleteness. i am missing those diwali pictures someone sent me last year.i am missing that person last year i had . i am just missing a photo in which a girl was sitting at the front of a plate with full of deepak

i want to stake a sharp object in my heart untill the last drop of my blood comes out from it with all the feelings i have in it . everyday i tried to pretend that i am okay and good without you and i mooved on with this breakup thing  but in real i am not okay without you, just because from the day one when we came in this beautyfull relationship i started belived in you in your promises, i bealived that you are the only love of my life.but everything vanished in a mooment just like in a fictional movie someone snapped and everthing vanished. however i  managed to spent my daytime by distracting my self from your sweet memories  but in the night i can't resist it and these sweet memories works like poisen  for my heart . everynight i cry for you ,every moments in which we live , all those memories which we made ,comes in my mind one by one and it hurts . it hurts more when on the one hand i miss you too much and having a hope of your comeback and on the other hand i can't igno