Today's truth

after a long time once again i am going to write all my pains through the pen . so from here i start my painful story which can waste your time if you read it at the end, every day from the morning to the night . from the sun rise to the sunset. from waking up to sleep. i have lot of thoughts but about only one person whome i have lost ago. yes this one is also about the same girl who left me and did not told me the reason behind her decision. every night before going to sleep i keep finding faults in myself . generally in days i try to keep myself busy in some stuff so i can handle my emotions but it's harder to control your emotion at night. every night when i miss you i find tears in my eyes. and suddenly all the  memories which we made for hard time when we are not together and miss eachother flashes in my mind .  but now i realise that you were never involved in making them and you will never miss those moments. and when i miss you when i realises that you are not with me...

in a very simple way without any poetic language I am trying to confess few things. these are the things about which i am unable to talk with my mom with my friends because i cant face their questions after they read this letter. the things i wrote in this letter i dont want to happen in my life but i dont know why it's seems like this shit gonna be real in my life oneday. yes, i want to commit suiside .i dont want to live anymore without the person i love too much. yes, it's about a girl who broke up with me four months ago. from the day she broke up with me , my life turned into the hell. everynight i sleep with her sweet memories and it gives too much pain to my heart . and in morning i wakeup with my wet pilow . i dont want to live anymore because everyday i feel lke i am the lonliest person in this world full of people. everyday whenever i miss her i realise that the day when she came back in my life again , will never come in my life . and i have to live alone . and i am ...